What a sad day. What a sad week. Loss is a heavy, heavy thing. It demands to sit on shoulders. There is no asking permission. I guess permission would be useless—who would say yes? Grief is a crucial process to heal, after all. There should be no shame. Nothing to apologize for. Anthony Bourdain was unapologetically himself, at least that’s the persona he shared with the world. I don’t dare presume to know what lived inside his heart, what dark forces gnawed and scratched fro